Lord, would the things that I pray not be a way to increase my own sense of self-importance or sense of wisdom, but be expressions of the things that have been placed on my heart from yielding to Yours. I want to lose sight of myself and be spurred on by the pursuit of wanting to behold more of who You are, because there is nothing greater than even the glimpse that I’ve caught of You now.
God, I don’t want to control my actions with the desire to manipulate how I hope to be seen, but I want the things that I carry out to be a reflection, and a response, of an inner-spirit that has been, and is still being, constantly refined by You. I don’t want acts of kindness motivated by self-preservation or a self-seeking glory. God, pull out and extinguish the roots of vanity and fear in my life; I don’t want to be controlled by any other thing but your love.
More of You, Lord. More of You. I pray that as I cry out for Your Spirit to fall, that I would allow You to dig out and dispose all idols in my heart, so that I can receive to the most of my capacity, and You can lead with all authority. Lord, I have so much unrighteousness in me, and my inclination towards self-preservation is something that I repeatedly fail to turn from, but this desire to start adamantly crawling towards You [in actuality, not just seemingly on the surface (which I've previously desired to be good-enough to settle for)], is a little yeast that I know You’ll be faithful in working out in the completeness of my faith.
God, give me eyes to see death on the things I’ve previously beheld as valuable, and clarity to know that there is only one well that is worth drawing from.
My heart, God. May it be true.
